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so yesterday i took meeshla for a walk and when i got back i saw that i had a voicemail--it was from scandia. i start training saturday. im excited, for one i have a job after being out of one for like 2 1/2 weeks and two, i should be making mad tips. let alone when i do catering with them, depending on what i do i'd make between $15-$22 an hour :) hopefully all goes well.
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[01 Aug 2006|09:42am] |
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yeah so apparently the asshole guy at scandia never called. go figure. whatever, so as of now im still jobless....aside from watching pats dog for a week and helping my aunt with the horses and getting money for those two things. i feel like i've applied everywhere as well. but there are few that i still want to apply to, and perhaps i'll do that today. woohoo.
in other news school sucks and i dont wanna go back...
all i want is to make money right now.
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[23 Jul 2006|07:07pm] |
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looks like im waitressing again at skandia. sweet man.
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| my shitty life. |
[22 Jul 2006|11:46am] |
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okay so i had an interview today at 11:10. It was for a front desk position at a dentist office in salisbury. on a side note i'd like to say how every employee there was a young, pretty girl. I found out why went i went in with the doctor. he was like straight out of italy, completely metro, but not gay and had med-long flowing black hair, greenish eyes and was tan of course. im assuming the brand new mercedes was his. oh well, anyways, i didnt get the job cause of school. go figure, i need money sooo fucking bad and i cant get a job there cause of school in the fall. the summer is almost over, so i'd be working there like a month. thats fucking gay. whatever. this is my life. and so dawn like put me on the sched for one day next week. why doesnt she just get the balls to fire me?? honestly. regardless, im not going in friday. im done with that place, it was a no where job, i was never making any money, and i had pathetic hours. so right now im feeling pretty fucking shitty. i have no job, no money, no bf. I dont wanna go to school in the fall-i'd rather work. my love life sucks. justin and i are finished. we hung out monday, i left at like 11 30 wicked pissed, we didnt talk until he called me thursday on his lunch break(first time since feb) and then i havent talked to him since then. and i dont plan on it unless he fucking calls. cause apparently he doesnt care about me. and thats sad and i wanna cry. but fuck it. im so lost right now. well i dunno, not lost...just...i dunno. im gonna go rob a bank now.
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[17 Jun 2006|07:26pm] |
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I fucking HATE you.
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[07 May 2006|10:35am] |
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It's finally SUMMER!!!! I'm so excited. Summer 2006, here i come :)
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| I want to be buried in your backyard... |
[03 Mar 2006|10:25pm] |
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It's funny how when you leave highschool you think you have all the answers. You think you know everything you need to know about life. You have an awesome summer, you're all set for college and you're on top of things. You have a major and you have,(even if you dont want to admit it), planned the next 5 years of your life, if not more. Except its all unrealistic. All of a sudden you have all the questions instead of answers and find yourself stumbling because you dont know which foot to put infront of you first. I suppose this is only life and just as the last 12 yrs of your life have been, the years ahead will only become familiar and you will become comfortable with them. Or at least i hope so.
With all of this, i believe we shouldn't forget our age. We are after all only teenagers. Sometimes we find ourselves acting like we're 30 and carrying the weight of the stress of a 30 year old mother/father of two trying to make ends meat to live a middle class suburban life. And for what? Why start now how we're going to be in 15 years? I say live it up. Stay up. Drink up. Laugh it up. And never give up. Never lose the thoughts you have when you're 18 and hanging out with your friends doing absolutely nothing. Never forgot the dreams you've had since you were 5. Nothing defines you more than your dreams. And most importantly, stay young.
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| i need to relax and have fun for a night...maybe tonite |
[21 Feb 2006|05:42pm] |
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argh im so annoyed right now and i really dont have a reason to be. i think its my outlet for being stressed or anxious about something. but i dont want to talk about what that something is. oh well.
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[05 Feb 2006|02:19pm] |
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I am so annoyed right now. I hate everything. ugh. The only thing thats good is that its now sunny and nice out, except i have to work at 4 30 and cant enjoy it. And im sure i'll be there until closing even if we're not busy cause shannon's evil and a horrible person who kisses at to my boss so much it isnt even funny. My family drives me crazy. My house is a fucking mess. I cant wait to have my own place, its gonna be spotless. I need more money, but theres no other jobs out there for me except restaurant cause they're the only ones opened at night and im in fucking Salem all day. this blows. And justin is pissing me off...as usual...i fucking hate how he calls like twice a week, he still hangs out with his ex, he chooses booze and weed over me, ugh...wtf honestly. This is bullshit, we're bullshit, and we need to stop. Whatever.
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[23 Jan 2006|12:11pm] |
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So i woke up today, ready to head on down to salem a little earlier than usual 1) because of the snow and 2) i needed to buy my books. But the second i got downstairs my mom told me i wasnt going, cause she doesnt want me to die in a car accident. Thanks mom, but im a big girl, the campus isnt closed, and i need to be present so points arent taken off my final grade. So now i guess im stuck home all day with my mom....wicked fun. And im kinda freaking myself out, bc im actually a little concerned and upset about not being able to go to class. Given i didnt do the reading assignments do to my lack of books for comp 2 but i still could have listened to the discussion and taken notes so i wont be left behind. Whatever, then i thought to myself today would be a good day to do my world civ 2 homework that i thought was due tomorrow, but is really due thursday. Hmm to start it and get it over with now while i have all this free time, or stick to what i've done my whole life and do it at the very last minute possible...hmm...the possibilities. Regardless, i hate being "trapped" in my house all day, i tend to get a bad case of cabin fever if u will, so i tried to convince my mom to take me to lunch. She declined...apparently she doesnt want to die in a car accident as well. Hopefully the snow will end shortly and the roads will clear for the night so i can escape for a few hours.
I took the dive again and started hanging out with justin. After i told myself i wouldnt give in this time after breaking up with him. I told him at least a month so we wouldnt fall back into our routine of "hey we're broken up, but i still like you, lets do what we used to". But who was i kidding, even after i month we would have still done that. He was right, you cant put a time limit on this shit. As much as he pissed me off and does things i hate, and knows just how to push my buttons, i still love him. He makes me so happy, and we laugh constantly with eachother. Its great really. Oh well, we'll see what happens, somehow this time it seems to be different...in a good way.
I want to start a sport or maybe go to the gym?? I always say this but really, i feel i have unreleased energy that would be perfect for some form of exercise.
I could really use a beer right now.
This is getting random, maybe i'll start that work.
Im really happy that rachel scheduled her classes for 4 days a week, so now we have 3 days to see eachother :)
haha this is getting pathetic, im done. Adios.
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[11 Jan 2006|01:00pm] |
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Wow, im so bored right now. I'd actually like to be working right now....hmm..the irony.
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| i want something else to get me through this semi-charmed life |
[09 Jan 2006|02:14pm] |
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Here's my deal, i have absolutely no money, i need more hours at my work, but then again if i go to Salem, i cant get more hours, cause im gonna need my free time to study. But here's another thing; i dont wanna go to school. I've hated school my whole life, why would college be any better?? Maybe to do something i want?? Yeah well maybe i dont know what i wanna do. Im signed up for Business Management at Salem, but maybe i dont wanna do that. Maybe i picked that major cause i figured u cant go wrong with that...this world is run by businesses, and i could start my own and either succeed or fail and in any case work for myself. I need money to badly right now, that i almost wanna just work full time and say fuck it to college....at least for now. But i dont want people to look down at me for not going to college...like my family...then again, since when do i care what other people think? I know lots of people who didnt go to college and are doing fine. Whatever, this fucking blows...i cant deal. THIS IS FUCKING BULLSHIT.
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[05 Jan 2006|10:24pm] |
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I am in love with Justin Matthew Currie Downs. Everything about him i love; even if i dont agree with it. I'm happiest with him. I want nothing more than to lay in bed with him all day and to talk and cuddle. I cant stand not seeing him for more than one day, although i try hard not to show it. Last night he said i should move in with him and i want to take him up on that offer, as crazy as that sounds. I could kiss him all day, he makes me so happy. With him everythings alright. I laugh the hardest with him. And when he tells me he loves me all my troubles go away. I still get butterflies when he calls as if we've only just started dating. And i cant help but smile constantly when im with him. I cant believe we lived in the next town over from eachother for 18 yrs and have only just found eachother. I couldnt imagine not knowing him. I love him.
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| read it and had to share it |
[18 Dec 2005|11:35am] |
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Can you understand this... Go placidly amid the noise & haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly & clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater or lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not is is clear to you, no doubt the world is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive that to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
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[12 Dec 2005|03:06pm] |
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DAVE MATTHEWS CONCERT TONITE!!!!!!!! :)
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